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UNCOVER THE SECRETS OF ATTRACTION: https://www.dauchsymeditation.com/
Reveal Your Inner Light ~ SLEEP MEDITATION ~ Healing Gratitude and Love
Intro: 0:00 - 5:18
Guided Meditation: 5:18 - 23:10
Positive Affirmations: 23:10 - 3:00:00
The past week has been a difficult one for me. My dog, Leela, the one on my profile picture, hurt her back, losing the ability to use her hind legs. This happened two years ago as well, but luckily, back then, she was able to recover with surgery. Unfortunately, this time, there was nothing they could do, and we had to put her to rest. After 12 years, letting her go, watching her take her last breath was more painful than I could have ever imagined.
A week later, my mother passed. Since I was born, she had battled the devastating symptoms of multiple sclerosis, an incurable disease where your own immune system literally eats away the protective covering of the nerves. Over the years, slowly, but surely, we witnessed her body deteriorate, losing the ability to walk, losing nearly all her mobility in her arms and hands. Then, two years ago, she was diagnosed with bladder cancer. Only after many hospital visits, several painful months of chemo, radiation, and surgery, losing her hair, and essentially the functioning of the remainder of her body, the doctors told her there was nothing more that they could do, and the cancer would soon take her life.
After watching someone go through such suffering, my brother, my sister, my dad, watching her go through that every single day, suffering alongside her, it was hard not to question why we suffer.
Now, over the past couple of weeks, I was able to have many conversations with some of my family members and friends. We had many discussions about God, and what heaven might be like, but the one topic that kept coming up was the topic of suffering. Specifically, why is there such suffering in this world? Why would God create a world that would allow people to suffer so much, or even suffer at all? Now this is a scary question, because of course, this leads to, “well, maybe God doesn’t exist.” And maybe our suffering is proof of that. If God did exist, why would he allow it? So, as I thought about this for the last couple of weeks, I thought about how easy it could be to fall into a state of bitterness, of hate towards the world, towards people, towards God, and even towards the ones we love, especially for my mother who has gone through such suffering throughout her life. Everything she went through, she would have had every right to be bitter.
But that’s not what happened.
Now, as I watched my mom suffer though all of this, and as I watched the decisions she made, watched how she chose what to do with all this suffering, it opened my eyes to something unexpected, something pretty incredible. I realized that she could have chosen to be bitter, but instead, she chose a different path. She chose to be grateful in spite of her suffering. She chose to use the remaining days that she had left to express how much she loved us. Seeing how my mom handled all of this suffering with such courage, I started to think that maybe there is a point to all this suffering. Maybe there’s a purpose to it all. Maybe it is only suffering that can open our eyes to the truth around us.
I realized that it was suffering that opened my eyes to the outpouring of love from all of my family and friends. It was through suffering that has allowed me to become closer with my family, allowed me to build stronger relationships than I thought possible. Through suffering, it has allowed me to see the strength and courage of my father, who has always been there for my mom through the worst things you can imagine. The last four days of her life as my mom was unconscious, my dad sat by her side at every moment. Even at night he would sleep on the couch next to her. He did this just to make sure my mom was not alone when she took her last breath.
Now, as I ask myself the question again, “Why do we suffer?” I believe I have an answer that I can at least be satisfied with. It was only through the suffering of my father that gave me a glimpse of the type of man I want to be and the strength I one day might be capable of. It was only through the suffering of my mother that taught me that I can always choose gratitude over bitterness no matter how much suffering I am experiencing. And it was only through suffering that I learned that when the burden of life becomes too heavy to bare, there are so many people around me that I can depend on, that I can lean on, that are willing to bare that burden alongside me.
In the darkness of suffering, there is always a light to be found. In this meditation, I want to share that light that I found in my heart with you as we focus on all the beautiful wonders of life, on healing, on gratitude, on love, on everything good, even the suffering . |